I don't mind being a little different but I am becoming seriously worried about me. My spiritual background is low Anglican & fairly liberal but I am attracted, have always been attracted, to the other extreme while knowing full well I am far to much of an individual to submerge into group anything. Catching up on my bloggy contacts (not all of whom I've listed) I suddenly realised how many are either Mennonite, or used to be Mennonite, or would be Mennonite if they could or are Quaker, Plain Quaker not this new age liberal Quaker stuff that makes no theological sense to me at all though that strong sense of personal accountability, personal encounterability, & sense of social justice explains why I land on the Quaker side of the fence.
Still it's a strange & scarey journey, this discovering God personally (It is a fearfull thing to fall into the hands of the living God) & learning how to follow his leading ~ the leading that is just for me & no~one else because God values the individual, calls us by name, knows the plans he has for us....a long winded way to say I started looking into Isiah 49, a personal message, & so totally freaked at what I think the Lord is saying to me I may just hibernate under a harrow for the next decade or so! Courage is not my strong suit; brave I am not. In point of fact I haven't finished reading the chapter yet because I got so far & couldn't cope with even that much. And yes, I do know it is speaking firstly & most specifically about Christ. It's just he keeps highlighting bits for me & I think I'm going into meltdown.. Where's the cat? I want company!